Anxious

((MOOD))
((MUSIC)) "Cloud Age Symphony" -Okino (from LastExile)
I'm really getting anxious now, last night i didn't pass out until 5:30am. I'm nearly done packing, but i still have a few things to do. The closet and the stuff i left laying out, stuff we still needed to use..i have boxes laying out to pack them when we absolutly are ready to take off.

I'm also, currently, helping my mother move her stuff out. They may have sold the house, and mom wants to get her stuff out and then move on with her life. Dad is still creating a few problems for her, and his family has cut mom completly out.....*sigh* 21 years of friendship with her and they cut her out over the divorse...my gawd. I am astonished....that side of my family has no class and it often sickens me. They are my family, yes, and i love them, but that is bullshit if you ask me.

Well yesterday we were able to catch almost all the rest of the kitties. 2 left to possibly catch. Paige and Timon. There is no way in hell we'll catch Morpheous or Aurther, they are too wild. But, hopefully i can catch Moe-moe (Timon) he's close to 12 years old and still loves to hunt. Mom really wants me to take him with me when i move so he can become and inside-cat and live the rest of his days safly indoors. Cool and pampered. He shouldn't mind that too much, i only fear that he'll be the snot out of my brother-in-law's (he'll be living with us) dog Lavie...a border collie who loves to heard everyone and everything. My other cat that i'll be taking with me, Stryder, will probably take a few swings at her as well....but more than likely he'll run and hide; either that or he'll hop in my lap and start to drool and drip snot. ^.^; Stryder is a very odd kitty...he drools when he purrs...goes into a catatonic state and begins to drip from both mouth and nose...LOL.. Weird ain't it? lol oh well, i still love the little furball.

Fair-warning just incase i don't post til then, i'll be disappearing offline when i move July 8th for i don't know how long.

A Little Lost

((MOOD))

((MUSIC)) "Cryin" - Aerosmith

Ever get to a point in your life that you go.....where the hell am I....really? I'm getting ready to move soon, I get to have animals at this apartment (thank gawd), my husband and I will be living there with his brother. Which won't be a problem, his room is on the opposite end and it's a decent sized place and he's lived with a couple before. We are all pretty close. He hangs out with us when we/he aren't/ isn't working anyway.

So because of the moving, I've gotten excited and haven't been sleeping....hell....I don't get tired til 3-4 am..and I don't pass out until 5-6am....it's starting to wear me down. I'm not working because of the move..and I was sick of their bullshit, but i'm currently looking. What i really want to do is write my stories...but i've had so much on my mind that i just can't. My parents just got divorced...that wore me out cause they were kinda bringing me into it. My mom is dating a man who is 17 years younger than her....4 years older than me...and the same age as my husband.....so that has kinda eroded away some of my sanity. Now mom has a tattoo on her lower back...when I don't even have one......the one who kinda wierded out when I had a second set of holes in my ears. This is like the feminine form of mid-life crisis. My mother, who used to be the shy quiet type in school, then self -conscious over-weight woman, is now lost weight...not all but most, and is acting like a teenager. The real party kind too. Some parts of me aren't surprised, my mother is a very open woman......but.....still weirds me out O.o;.

This isn't the only thing wearing me down, the move too...just very excited, but worrying about money....finding a job...not believing in myself...i gained like 10 pounds and i'm depressed. *sigh* Other times i'm fine, but i've just stressed myself and i'm worn out. I've been packing too, and i'm the only one doing it.

Yes, i know, you're thinking, 'Make your husband help' and 'lazy bum of a husband', quite the contrary, he's working two jobs....with no days off. He goes to work at one job from five til like 9pm then at 10 leaves for his graveyard shift at the other til 8:30 in the morning and then sleeps, wakes up...and does it all over again. He feels extremely bad for it too. He hates being away from me, leaving me alone at night. Bought me roses today because i was feeling so down, the sweetheart. Sure...some of you might be suspicious..'.overnighter, yeah right...do you see any of that money?' Of course i do...i control the account. I have the checkbook, because he's poor at keeping track of things, i know his paydays which are every week. I take the check..and i deposit it, i pay the bills accordingly to what we can afford and when. he has a credit card, since i made it joint, but it is my account and i even watch it on the net to make sure (a certain company who's fucked us over once) doesn't do it again. I keep my records. So my husband is helpful when he's awake and can help. It's just wearing me out with the packing and i have a tendency to worry unnecessarily over nothing at all and i get over excited. I really need to relax more. *sigh* I guess the drinking of over 5 soda's a day doesn't help either? O.o; i really need to like take a bubble bath or something...only i packed the bubbles....>.< shoot me now... *jams to some H.I.M.* I'll go try to calm myself...*yawns* ....well there's a good sign at least....maybe i can pass-out early today.

Top 5 list

Alist to let you get to know me before hand.

My fav list

TV AND VIDEO

Top 5 tv shows?

Friends, House, Law and Order SVU, Law and Order and Numb3rs.

How about animated shows?

Simpsons, Family Guy, Futurama, King of the Hill, and Kim Possible (Rufus is cool)

Now anime?

Rurouni Kenshin, Fruits Basket, Last Exile, VanDread and Cowboy Bebop

Movies?

Fifth Element, Everafter, The Whole Nine Yards, City Slickers and The Crow

Anime movies?

Vampire Hunter D, Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust, Kite, Spirited Away and Mononoke Hime (Princess Mononoke)

Fav actors?

Johnny Depp, Bruce Willis, Matthew Perry, Jackie Chan and Brandon Lee (says a little Prayer)

Actresses?

Drew Barrymore, Sandra Bullock, Eva Longoria (my fellow Spurs fan XD), Julia Stiles and Leelee Sobieski


STEREO

Fav singers/ bands?

H.I.M, DollyBraid, SR 71, Marilyn Manson and Loreena McKennette

Fav. Songs?

"Broken like an angel"- Dollybraid, "San Pedro"- Dollybraid, "Wicked Game"- H.I.M. (originally done by Chris Isaak and is still a fav.), "Love Me, Just leave me alone"- Jewel, and "Black Velvet"- Alana Miles

FOOD

Snack?

Brownie, Pocky, Triple chocolate ice cream, Pirouette and Canolies

Vegetables?

Corn, Broccolli, Carrots, Green Beans and Celery

Fruits?

Orange, Plum, Strawberry, Pineapple and Blueberry

Meats?

STEAK! STEAK! Chicken, turkey and MORE STEAK!

Seafood?

Shrimp, Calamari (squid mmmm...lol), clam, and Tuna...no fifth....

Breads or pasta favs?

White Bread, muffins, bagels, macaronni and townhouse crackers o.o

Any food Allergies?

Banana, Watermellon, iceburg lettuce, romain lettuce and all peppers. may be more...i'm unsure :/


LITERATURE

Fav Authors?

Anne Rice, Janet Evanovich, Sydney Sheldon, Laurel K. Hamilton and J.K. Rowling

Fav Books?

The Vampire Lestat, Kiss of Shadows, Order of the Pheonix, Shade's Children and Nothing Lasts Forever

Fav. Chars?

Lestat, Barinthus (Kiss of shadows), Sirius Black, Jason (Nothing Lasts Forever), and *tied* Fred and George Weasley

Fav. Manga-ka (manga artist)?

Watase Yu, CLAMP, Miyazaki (including all his films and manga) those are my top 3 can't think who i would love more

Fav Manga?

Ayashi no Ceres, Kill Me Kiss Me, Fruits Basket, Inu Yasha and Hana Kimi

Fav Manga chars?

Aogiri Yuhi, Sagara Sanosuke, Izumi Sano, Inu Yasha and Sohma Shigure

COLORS/ NUMBERS/ ANIMALS

fav colors?

black, silver, dark blue, dark purple and red

fav #? 5

fav animals?

cats, dogs, rabbits, wolves and tigers

current pet favs or pet you've been close to in the past?

my first dog Samantha Jo (white german shepard), my black cat Piper (was like my own child...got killed), Stryder ( my grey tiger cat), MudBlossum (Blossum) my chow/retriever mix and Crash (my orange and white giant turkish cat) he's very comical.