yay...this'll probably just become a quizy dumping ground or something ~.~

must post more

Hai...hai, i really must post more often...yay having multiple blogs....none of which i keep entirely up with.

Updates: still agent hunting....hai 'shhh...i'm huntin agents...heheehehehehe'

Okay yeah, that was bad. I'm halfway through that first books sequal...but i'm taking a break and moving on to a different story set in a whole different place, time period and way of thinking...must get out of an ancient chinese/ japanese frame of mind and come back to my home town where this story is set. I had a sudden push to do this story that's been on the back burner for well over a year and became instantaniously inspired and fell right back in love with the charries...especially the main man John XD...waii waii! sexy assassins! Yay!

I really am odd compared to many women. I just realized by how much!

Here's how different:

1. many women are yes...attracted to the bad boy...which...in their head is either a criminal...a playboy....or some acting playboy jock actor....and many women are fixated on latino men....

Me...hell....i like a bad boy, but i mean a guy who isn't neccissarily a bad guy....just rough around the ages...doesn't suit todays social standards...and generally landed himself in a bad place because he was trying to ...not neccisssarily play the hero, but...is one in a Robin-Hoodish kind of way. You know...an assassin who is 'killing the bad guys' (this btw is John), a Pirate....hey...they steal from rich people, a man who was wrongly accussed of a crime, a samurai (mmm samurai's XD), ninja's....well...warriors, in general are what i find very attractive. *suddenly dreamy about the 300 guys*

2. So many women like pretty guys....like ...Patrick Dempsy...Brad Pitt....Jude Law....ummm.....that....soccer guy who's name i'm forgotten. Alright...i'll admit...he's got a nice body; i'm just not generally attracted to that. I like a rugged look....not slob-wise...but shaggy hair (neat is good too) , but i'm not usually attracted to the clean shaven, i like scruffliness...not beads (goatees are fine)...not mustaches...but a thin layer of hair that doesn't neccessarily have to be even. But the thing i find most attractive is intellect and humor...a good mix of the two (mmm....witty humor), is most excellent. A slight serious is needed too...and a nice dash of dark, broodiness...very sexy.

I have thus made 'the list'
Johnny Depp (smart, funny, extremelly tallented and hot)
Hugh Jackman (same as above)
David Krumholtz (intelligent, funny, talented...very sexy because of it...i like the hair XD)
Doctor Will from Big Brother (I'm sorry....he was a bloody evil genius and i find that very sexy)
Ozzy of Survivor (common! smart...funny...honorable...true survivor in every sense, the monkey...so hot! Honor and loyalty....i find that extremely sexy as well)

3. most women like to show for clothes....love fashion...and shoes.... *gags*

I absolutly loath clothes shopping! Most fashion looks like a train wreck or something dug out of a garbage heap, i'm sorry and shoes? Shoes! High heals.....gag me! I need me some boots......though i would love to find some knee-high, stilletto, open toe lace up boots....that would be awesome. But i have what...one pair of cheap beach sandals i wear to retrieve the mail, some nice black buckled boots that i weat all the time and black knee high zip up, boots that i wear on occassion. But on the whole...i'm not orgasmic about clothes or shoe shopping....though i am orgasmic over books......i can spend hundreds on books. If i need to save money...all i need is to stay clear of the bookstore and i'll be great. XD

So i'm an odd one...so what? I'm happy, married (to a man who exhibits the qualities i love and was and still is my best friend) and have a child. We don't fight over small things...we laugh at them..and other stuff we talk about and neither of us care about money...except when we need to pay bills...but it is never a disrupting issue in our love.

I say i've got it made in that matter...and i'm happy to be different than most women. XD

I'm back

((Mood))
((Music)) "She's on Fire"- Train

I'm back...wow...i thought i was only 2 years....but it's more like 2 1/2...how sad...ah well, i'm back!!! So yay for that....demo...i mainly feel like slicing things up....i know it was something small....but i'm pms'ing currently...so no surprise that i'm in a foul mood over something miniscule.

Other news. I'm a mommy ^^ for two years, yup his birthday is tomorrow! We'll be celebrating it on teusday, though at Chili's. Not a lot of people, we're holding 2 diff b-days because both me and my husband's parents are divorced. His dad's in Mississippi, so we just talked to him on the phone. We'll be goin to my dad's in the morning and then evening with be with our moms. Yay...<.<;;; i hate being in the middle. on the one hand...many parties and gifts...more grandparents for my son....i had the same thing...but....it's a royal headache now.....you think it's any easier on the adult children?? nope...nuh uh....we can cope...but holiday functions are a nightmare!!!!

Other news. I'm have finished my first book and am hunting down an agent....it feels odd to know that'll i'll have an agent...i'll need one to get published....kinda scary and exciting and nerve wracking...kinda sends me into panic mode, i'm trying to chill though. It's just strange to think i'll have an agent...as if i were someone important....very strange indeed.

interesting

((MUSIC)) "The Warlock's Fife"- Lifescapes
Don't you just love people who take your money? I know they love doing, damned evilloan people..i know i paid it off...then out of nowhere they say...you owe 400 more......damn them all to hell.

In less stressful...however a tad bit more stressful but exciting, i may be pregnant. I have not had a period in 2 months..the first month (and i've done this often) it was because i over stressed myeself and skipped the month...i've done that at least 3 times now. But this past month, i haven't been stressed, i've been happy....i've had cramps at night...and sometimes a bit of nausia in the moring, nothing to really count as bothersome, but i have woken up everyday with a very dry mouth, and i've lost some of my weight rather quickly. So i'm lead to believe i most likely am.

I am going to get checked out soon, i'll tell ya then.

Dog eats Cat food

((MOOD))
((MUSIC)) "Last in my Winds"- Weib Kreuz

So James' dog, Lavie, keeps eatin all the cat food...which is costing me, i had moved the food into our room...but she'd found it and still insists on eating it when we aren't looking and sometimes when we are. -.-'.

In other news...the cat is alittle nuts, but i have discovered that i mainly witness this insanity in house cats....like a case of cabin fever or somethin lol. Stryder has been runnin around insanly, chasing invisible things on the floor, staring at walls....or sometimes at nothing at all. It's weirdin me out. XP .he has this crazed look on him a lot...he's so weird..and yet...so adorable.
STRYDER














LAVIE














and there they are..the cuties ^^

soreness of two kinds

((MOOD))
((MUSIC)) "The Death Song"- Marylin Manson
((Phrase of the moment)) "we light a candle on an earth we made into hell...and pretend that we're in heaven"
..i would ramble on again about bills....but i'm trying to remind myself that almost all of em are paid for right now. *deep breath* worked out more and ...it doesn't hurt as much te second time...until the end. Tried stretching and i can't do it very well anymore....man...i used to stretch all over the place....and then...i stopped...for a year...now i can't..-.-'.

Laundry...

((MOOD))

((MUSIC)) "Mobscene"- Marylin Manson

This is just sad....with all the bills left over from the last apartment and all the activation fees...move in fees...transfer of service fees and all the other fucking fees that the fucking government pigs and the damned bastards running big fucking corporate companies thrust upon us all....i am running very low on cash and paying things late.....-.-** shoot me....no...better yet shoot them. MONEY IS EVIIIILLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really think i would have prefered living in the past where people used to barter....or hell i'll even go for the 'Star Trek' thing where money no longer matters...where people don't need money to define themselves. But we all know that'll never happen......freakin corporate pigs.....i hope you all rot in hell!!!!!! Better yet, i hope they go to hell and suffer mortal pain that no being could stand....die...then stay in hell....and be tortured yet again...for all eternity *evil laughter*

*Ahem* Forgive the rant....but all of you who know how it is when you do't have much money to do anything at all.

Anywho....in other news....*phone call* well....that's one less bill to worry about...my father-in-law had gotten us our last phone and had payed the bills for us...and since the last one was late...they had sent it to us..we were confused cause none of us saw the last bill. Well he found it and is going to pay it for us, so now i don't have to send it..plus the 75 something to make sure they don't shut off the phone. That put me in a better mood ^.^

Anywho, because of the money problem i really haven't had spare cash to do laundry...soooooo...i am washing stuff by hand in the tub and then hanging it with a fan pointed at the clothes. Sad ain't it? lol oh well.....best i can do right now..............i do wish we had our own washer and dryer 9.9...a girl can be hopeful ne?